I’m a big kid now?

I just made a hotel reservation for a friend from high school’s wedding that I’m in next weekend.

Does this mean I’m a grown-up now?

Kind of scary, isn’t it?



I missed the official two year anniversary of this blog, which I first posted to on the 17th of July 2004. We’ll just go for the month. Yay. mmm…gooey is two!

This past week was also my one year anniversary of working at the café. Woohoo!

Kitchen personality

Is anyone surprised by this? It somehow seems spot on…

The Whats In Your Kitchen Personality Test

You are a scoop of coffee with a crayon it in. You’re naturally perky, and you tend to get distracted. You’re entertained by simple things. You can’t focus. You’re rather carefree. You’re annoying to some, and loved to death by others. You’re a socialite. What can we say?
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The Talking Cure

After a fairly uncomfortable month, following the attempt at going to the movies and a series of long emails back and forth, the ex and I finally sat down yesterday to try to clear the air of some of the issues that are still preventing us from moving forward with being friends. They were mostly issues on my part although he did open up somewhat as well which was nice. It was quite a long talk and although nothing really ground breaking was said, it did help to clear the air. I felt really good after he left last night after our almost 3 hours of talking. I’m feeling a bit more ambivalent this morning, but I think–I hope–that this finally is going to let me move forward. I don’t think I’m still quite ready to start seeing him all the time, hanging out completely as friends, but I do feel better about things this morning than I have for the past month or so.

It’s a process, like everything else.

Official Status

I created a user name on Coffee Geek this morning so I can post to the forums.

Anyone want to donate the $45 so I can join the Barista Guild of America?

Yep. I’m a total dork.

I know it and embrace it and love it.

I’m trying to make peace with the fact that I’ll likely be here for another good bit–at least into spring. I had a good day of it yesterday. Today I’m feeling a bit ambivalent.

And I’m considering reading Saint Augustine’s Confessions.

Not only am I total coffee dork I continue to be in a very odd place emotionally/spiritually.

Fire Inside – Bob Seger

Then you walk to the window and stare at the moon
Riding high and lonesome through a starlit sky
And it comes to you how it all slips away
Youth and beauty are gone one day
No matter what you dream or feel or say
It ends in dust and disarray

Like wind on the plains, sand through the glass
Waves rolling in with the tide
Dreams die hard and we watch them erode
But we cannot be denied
The fire inside


My horoscope today told me to make it okay to worry about myself.

Thanks, Jacqueline Bigar. I’m glad I now have your approval for something I’ve been doing on a daily basis for as long as I can remember.

Things here are okay. Trying to sort through emotional stuff, mostly with the ex but some with the City and State as well. I was about ready to get the point of just starting to hate the ex. Then he had to go and be himself and be all caring and helpful–at least, potentially helpful.

Not that I could ever really hate him. But I thought maybe he was ignoring me in order to avoid dealing with emotional stuff. Turns out he wasn’t.

Now I have to sort through shit and figure out my own stuff.